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Untitled thing!

Posted by on Feb 10, 2016 in Literature
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It’s been like a week. I am being asked this same question from a lot of people, especially friends and some random girl I met online. “K cha ta bro Valentine’s day ko plan? Aauna lagyo ta”. To which I reply with a simple smile and sentence like “k hunu jaad khane ho”, ‘k hunu halline basne ho”. Answer depends upon who I’m answering.

So, yeah, Valentine’s Day, about that: like every time I have no plans. I have no one. Every year is the same story and same thing and some day if I am lucky I might get chance to get drunk. That’s it.

And lately I’ve been getting this feeling that I should quit. I think that I will not, ever in my life find someone. That’s totally not me. It’s just that those thing are not in my life and that’s totally cool. I am not angry with god. That’s totally fine. I know a lot of people who are not blessed with this things. Dr. Abdul Kalam, Nikola tesla, Sushil Koirala from country, Oprah, Sir Isaac Newton and the list goes on and on.

Fuck I am trying to make this article atleast a page but words are not coming. Why the hell am I not feeling a thing? There is sad music playing on my headphones and as far as I remember I am drunk enough. Had it been before I would have already written a book probably till now. So why am I being this dick that I sweared I will never be.


Ok I cant exaggerate anymore.

The bottom line is :


Marriage is shit. Because I told so.


About College…

Posted by on Sep 4, 2015 in Social
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Do you remember the answer to the question you gave when you were a kid when someone asked what do you want to become when you grow up? You may not, You may. It doesn’t matter because I am pretty sure you are not or will not be what you have said in your childhood. You know that you are not or will not live a life that you dreamed of when you were kicking off teenage.

This might feel sad and disappointing. You know after you graduate from college you are going to live a life where you will have salary of around 10k and some are not even sure about if they are really going to get a job. Most of you feel like future is total darkness because you won’t be prepared to go to the real world. You won’t have any idea about what you learned in 4 years of graduation. Your college didn’t teach you what to do after college, it just taught you about how to pass the exam without back and it even failed at it (looking at the graduating percentage) but still you go to college get formal, overprice worthless education. You invest a lot of time and money on such bullshit thing for nothing.


Imagine if you have spent your time resource your potential your capital on your idea and your project, how fruitful that would have already become. instead you spent your money time and potential to learn the worthless grammar past tense future tense bullshit which you will never need after you pass that exam.


We live in the generation of Internet. Everything, every knowledge about everything or everyone is freely available on the Internet. Why the hell would you waste your money or raise your debt on college when you can learn freely on the internet. It is more fruitful. You will learn whenever you feel like learning, you won’t have to wait for the professor. You won’t have to feel pressurized. You will have all the advantage.


Half of the graduates are unemployed and 5000 number of PH.D holder in USA who are working as a janitor. Isn’t it sad to have such a data? Do you still believe that a university produce highly qualified manpower? The formal education have raised a lot of unemployment while most of the college dropouts are in the list of richest people.


I had a friend who had a lot of trouble in passing SLC. He tried for 2 years and he couldn’t pass it and he gave up finally. Last time on Dashain I went to my home and found out that he now owns a royal enfield bike a 4 storied house in the capital and his real state business has grown so successfully that he now earns about 2 lakh per month and he is barely even SLC graduate. Doesn’t this kind of stories really make you sad? You got a good grade on SLC. Likewise you may have got good grades in high school and you are in a good college and you know you will pass with good grade. But what after that? You will get the salary that is barely enough to survive where your SLC failed friend would have already become richer than your father.


I don’t want to brag about my view in a long lengthy paragraph I will just summarize in few words.


Chase your dreams. Fuck the College degree.

“Norwegian Wood, Beatles” Story Version..

Posted by on Jun 16, 2015 in Literature
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Back in 1995, I was in Sweden. I was working for a project that used to make small portable smart device which would later be known as smartphone. We were working for US Army. Believe me, it was one of the most expensive project of that time by US military. We had to work for six days and just a day off a week.

I never go out on weekend. All of my work mates used to  go out and hang out all night. I used to just sit on my home watching TV eating and other stuff.  So, the day were just passing by, nothing was special and there was no excitement in life at all. I work like that for about two years till 1997.

But, There was this day, about two month before the project was dead. I just had a feeling that I should go out and know about the people and place where i have been living for like two years. So I went out, it was good. Maybe because I was walking out after a long time. I felt so good that I walked the whole day and later ended up in a strange place. It seem nothing like Stockholm. I realized that I had come to place. It was so quite.There were only like two houses. There were only few people. Well there were no people at all. I looked around. I thought I was screwed for a time. Then I saw someone shouting and waving at me. It was a girl’s voice. She approached to me. I also went near her. She seemed very thankful to find me, so was I. She didn’t ask my name, no any greetings, nothing. She just asked me to help her and she insisted.

I went to help her just to see if i could get some help from her to return Stockholm. There was this big tree. She said “please cut this tree, I will be very thankful to you”. Yes, I know it was supposed to be help, but later I found out that I was the only one to work.

The day was about to end and I was tired as hell. There was no way I could return Stockholm that night. So I had to stay there, I didn’t wanted to but I had to. I told her I was tired so she took me to her room. It was nothing fancy. There was just a bed made out of cheap Norwegian wood and that’s it. No, not even a chair. I have never seen such a worse room in my entire life.

But yes i said her room was beautiful when she asked me. I didn’t want to be rude. After,she asked me to stay and sit wherever i liked and she went out. I couldn’t find a chair but there was this rug where i could sit. She came with a wine and gave it to me. I drank it she drank it and we became busy in talking. While our talking was going on I found she was extremely smart, she knows a lot of thing. So the talking went quite a long till 2 AM. It seems like she need to say a lot to someone and she found me as someone to say all the things she has been hiding inside her for don’t know how much of years.

After that she told me that she has work to do tomorrow and she has to go to sleep else she will get late. “don’t you work?” She asked me. I was to lazy to explain her about my work so I thought it would be easy to say no and said no. We both went to bed after that.

I fell asleep faster than i normally would. Next morning I woke up, I went to her to ask her for some tea. But she wasn’t there. I went out and searched but nope didn’t find her. There were no one around just another house a few walks away. I went to that house and found out that no one had lived in that room. It has been abandon for about 4 5 years and nobody in that house had any idea about that girl.

I was amazed. I  took out a cigarette and light it.

I don’t know if she was a ghost, a real person, a thief or just some random person trying to steal from me but couldn’t . That talk in the night made me fall for her. She was beautiful. I didn’t even ask her name. I am stupid.

Brown-Eyed Girl

Posted by on Jun 5, 2015 in Literature
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I really needed some books for my preparation but I could not afford to buy one. So, I thought of going to library, not for borrowing the books but to steal. So I went over there. I took two books and looked around to check if someone have seen me. Nobody did. After I started to move slowly toward the door and out of it. Then something hit me from the back. I turn around and saw a blonde girl looking with her brown eye at me with her angry face. She caught my arms and took me to the librarian. I was heavily ashamed. I told that I had some kind of mental illness to forget things. It was a really bad day.


Next day it was really hot and I was coming home from my job. Suddenly I got hit in my face. I fell down. After that I heard some voice saying ” hey! asshole pass the ball”. I was angry as well as amazed by that voice. I stood up to see who that was. She was the same brown-eyed girl from the previous day. I went near her and started to yell at her. I yelled her so hard that she started to cry. People around me started to look at me as if I had killed someone. One of them came and asked me why was I yelling. For some reason she started to cry more in a loud voice. More people gathered and judged me to be guilty. I was ashamed that day too because of the her. It was not my fault, believe me it was so hot and the girl was so rude in the first place, every one would loose their temper .


Next day, like always I was going to my job. I saw this same girl with a tough big guy. Later I found that guy was her boyfriend. She was bit far but was approaching. I turned my head another side so that she wouldn’t recognize me but that didn’t worked. She saw me and said hello.. I didn’t want to be a asshole so I went near them. She apologized me and insisted me to get brunch with them. I was getting late for my office so I didn’t want to and told them for next time but she wouldn’t leave. She asked me my phone number so she can catch me later for brunch. We both shook on that and then I left.


Next day she called she was all crying and screaming. She asked me if she could meet me. I had some work but being a nice guy I went to meet her in a coffee shop. Turns out that big tough guy left and kicked her out from his apartment. She was so broke that she didn’t had money to pay even for the coffee. I offered her to stay in my apartment for some day. She was happy about it. Later in the evening she came with her stuff to stay. We didn’t have any talk that day. I always had this problem talking with girls. So not a single talk happened that night. In the night she called me and asked her to be with her. Well I went near her and she started to touch me all over the body. We had sex that night, it was amazing.


Next day, I went to my job just like every other day. I was really excited about the night. But when I came home there was nobody except this piece of paper. “He called and he was sorry for everything”. I looked at it and light a cigarette. “Oh! Well Whatever! I scored her last night anyway” was my exact word that time.



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HoloLens from Microsoft

Posted by on Jun 4, 2015 in Technology
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Microsoft has a vision for the future, and it involves terms and technology straight out of science fiction.

But are we actually glimpsing that future? Yes and no.

Microsoft’s HoloLens, which the company unveiled at its Redmond, Wash., headquarters on Wednesday, is a sleek, flashy headset with transparent lenses. You can see the world around you, but suddenly that world is transformed — with 3D objects floating in midair, virtual screens on the wall and your living room covered in virtual characters running amok.

Cyanogenmod Logo Cyanogenmod Logo


Posted by on Jun 4, 2015 in Technology
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Cyanogen is a US-based mobile software company which produces Android-based firmware for mobile devices. The company started life back in 2009 with the arrival of CyanogenMod, a custom ROM for the T-Mobile G1 created primarily by Steve “Cyanogen” Kondik. As Android grew in popularity during the following years, CyanogenMod grew in reach and feature set, with a vast community of contributors maintaining CM support across dozens — and eventually hundreds — of devices. With CyanogenMod, Android owners able to load custom firmware on to their device could replace the manufacturer’s software experience with CM, gaining new features, increased control (with optional root access), a visual style closer to Google’s vision of Android — and often improved performance to boot. CyanogenMod is an open-source OS based on the Android Open-Source Project.

In 2013 Cyanogen, Inc. was founded by Kondik and leading individuals in the CM community with venture capital funding, in order to expand upon CM and make the project commercially viable. The following year saw the launch of the OnePlus One, running the new Cyanogen OS, launched in partnership between Cyanogen and Chinese newcomer OnePlus. That device featured a new version of CM, dubbed CyanogenMod 11s, with additional closed-source features designed for the OnePlus One. In late 2014 Cyanogen announced a partnership with Micromax in India, which would see that manufacturer exclusively carry CM phones in that country.

Alcatel joined the party at Mobile World Congress 2015, with the Cyanogen-powered OneTouch Hero 2+. And in early 2015 the company raised $80 million in funding from investors including mobile giants like Twitter, Qualcomm and Telefónica — but not the widely rumored Microsoft.

The current stable version of Cyanogen’s software is CyanogenMod 11, based upon Android 4.4 KitKat. CM12, based upon the Android 5.0 Lollipop release, is in development at the time of writing.

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Google’s Android M

Posted by on Jun 2, 2015 in Technology
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Google officially introduced Android M, the next version of its mobile operating system, at its annual I/O Conference in San Francisco on Thursday.

As with 2014’s Android L preview, which eventually became lolipop , Google hasn’t yet granted Android M its delicious dessert name or a version number. Those details will likely come later this year when M makes its general debut on devices. For now, though, this is a developer-only affair.

Overall, there aren’t many surprises with Android M. Google’s focus on polish makes plenty of sense now, although it’s hard not to notice that it’s playing catch-up with Apple with Android Pay, app permissions and fingerprint authentication. That’s not necessarily a knock against Google — Apple’s also lifted plenty of concepts from Android — but it shows how much further ahead Apple is in new technologies like mobile payments and biometric security. Google’s likely not done yet, though — I wouldn’t be surprised if we see plenty more new Android M features announced over the next few months.

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Windows 10 coming: July 29.

Posted by on Jun 2, 2015 in Technology
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Microsoft promised to launch Windows 10 in the summer, and now the company is revealing an exact date: July 29th. Microsoft’s aggressive timing means that the company will be looking to finalize its features for Windows 10 very soon. Recent preview builds of the operating system continue to include many changes to features, and a number of issues and bugs.


Screenshot of windows 10 update on windows 7.

Microsoft now has less than two months to fix all these issues and bugs before it launches Windows 10 to the world. That’s slightly concerning given the state of the operating system right now, but recent preview builds have started to look and feel more final, indicating that Microsoft is making progress. A lot of Windows 10’s new features are part of universal Windows Apps, and the software company can easily update these even before many consumers buy new machines with Windows 10. Microsoft also has the option of releasing direct operating system patches up to and after general availability. Windows 8 launched with a big update available on the first day, and many separate app updates. Windows 10 looks set to continue that trend.